“Women were born to lead. Get out of her fucking way.” ~r.h. sin
A very dear friend of mine is going to school to be a life coach and hypnotherapist. She offered a practice life coaching session to me today, and of course I jumped at it. My life is pretty crazy right now, and I have always wondered about the life-coaching process.
I have this vision of a career that I am building, one step at a time. I’m going to school in October to become a childbirth doula. I am planning to partner up with a post-natal doula. I’m hoping that partner will be my cousin, who is also a photographer and showed an interest in doula school. Together, we can sell this business as a service for expectant mothers. The service would include prenatal massage appointments, pregnancy & infant photo shoot, full doula birth and post natal services, an astrological birth chart for the baby, and a post natal healing session for the mother.
A miscarriage support plan will be in place as well. I also plan to add death doula services to my list, and eventually work with hospice services and nursing homes. But first I want to encompass every aspect of pregnancy.
I have personally experienced two miscarriages, so I know how awkward and horrific they can be. In fact, I left my ex husband because of his behavior during my miscarriages. And I stayed with him for ten years, through some pretty messed up times.
I want to offer this service as something I’ve wished that I could have had, during those really big moments in my life when I felt so scared and alone. Those moments when I needed someone to hold my hand through the daunting task of mourning in private for a life that is still never talked about, and the physical and emotional pain that accompany that situation.
My service will carry a woman through the beautiful and sometimes terrifying journey of childbirth. Again, I had my narcissistic mother and an over grown man child to help me through the enormous labor of labor. I would have paid good money for someone like me to help me through that process. I have an abundance of positive energy. I want to make good use of it. Bringing life into this world, helping to honor life as it leaves this world, and empowering women in their most intense moments… Those are the moments that I want to be a part of. Those are the moments that matter the most. And this career is a divine design that encompasses my three greatest passions… massage, astrology, and empowering women.
This package would be expensive. But I would pro-bono 50% of my clients. This way, a wealthy mother could sponsor a less fortunate mother by paying full price, and the two can exchange photos and letters in the hopes of inspiring a lifetime bond between two women, two children, and two very different financial backgrounds. A bridge between two people who would normally be separated by status. This would also give the high status women a sense of entitlement to such an elite service. I’m hoping that rich women will make a trend out of this service and spread our business model across the country. When women come together, everyone wins.
My friend just informed me that she is also training in the art of childbirth hypnosis. That same friend is building a music festival with me because we got high one day and recognized the beauty of each other’s potential. Now we have an entire team of people, working together to make something happen. And in a few years, when this Jupiter blessed music festival project starts really paying off, we are going to use our profit to buy a mansion on the boulevard and open our very own center for women and healing. It’s going to be one of a kind. We will eventually expand, hiring a midwife and possibly designing birthing suites, mixed with some long term lodging available to young or battered women who have no place to stay, no support in their lives.
This big idea all stems from the pain of my mother threatening to disown me if I didn’t have an abortion, and my brother’s willingness to take me into his home, when I was pregnant and scared and alone. I had nowhere to go, nothing to offer my unborn child. He offered to help me get back on my soon to be swollen feet and because of that, I have a beautiful daughter that has blessed my life in so many ways.
This is what I am learning about myself right now. All my deepest wounds are lined with gold. I’m re-writing myself. I’m re-writing my story.
We would use this space to offer Massage, reiki, meditation, hypnosis, yoga, writing retreats, Moon circles, smudging services, astrology classes, and whatever else we decide to do. Because when you get a few enlightened old souls together, you never know what the hell we’re capable of.
And I spent that whole session letting go of thirty years of baggage that lovingly molded me into the champion that I am now becoming. Today I remembered just who the fuck I always have been. I opened myself to trusting that I will figure it all out, in perfect timing.
I keep leaping forward in life, with my heart wide open. I’m too far gone to go back now.